..kiss, kiss my lips when the sugar is gone..

remember I told you I wanted to bake a cake the other day, tapi tak cukup bahan? Tadi lantaran kepingin yang teramat, dan kerana merajuk with certain person, berjaya juga untuk makan kek cekelat yang sedap lagi enak. Dan kerana kek cekelat ini sungguh delicious sekali menurut saya dan rakan-rakan (tak tau laa diorang cakap sedap sebab memang sedap ke, atau sebab nak bodek ajer), jadi rasa nak letak resepi kek kat sini. Kek ni senang sebab dia tak payah pakai timbang, sumer sukat pakai cawan, tak kisah laa cawan arcoroc ke, arcopal ke, cawan plastik ke, sumer bleh. (resepi curik kat mesra.net)

KEK CEKELAT YANG SEDAP, ENAK LAGI MUDAH (dengan jari Jiejah sebagai penambah perisa :p)

Bahan untuk di ayak:

1 3/4 cawan tepung

1 camca teh baking powder

1 camca teh soda bikarbonat

1 camca teh nescafe

3/4 cawan serbuk koko

Bahan-bahan lain:

2 biji telur

2 cawan gula castor

1 cawan susu sejat/ fresh milk

1 cawan minyak masak

1 cawan air mendidih

Cara-cara:

1. pukul telur dan gula sampai kembang

2. masukkan susu, minyak and bahan-bahan yang dah di ayak tadi

3. last sekali, masukkan air mendidih dan kacau sampai rata.

4. Pastu bleh laa curah dalam tin cake yang dah di grease ngan marjerin, dan bakar pada suhu 180C sampai masak. (40-45 minit, mungkin lebih - cucuk ngan garpu, kalu clear, maknanya dah masak)
5. kalau nak sedap lagi, bleh laa hias ngan cekelat cair masa dia panas-panas tu and tabur ngan cekelat rice ke, apa-apa lah yang sesuai.

Bleh laa dimakan bersama rakan-rakan atau keluarga terchenta. ;)

~ there's a light at the end of every tunnel, just make sure it's not the train! ~

Yeay, weekend is here!! Alhamdulillah, I finally, finally managed to finish my SSC last nite, walaupun terasa sangat-sangat painful, bosan dan nak termuntah-muntah at the end. If all goes well, I'll have my last SSC to look forward to (not!) in 2 weeks time. InsyaAllah. I'll probably go out and celebrate after the last SSC, just for the hell of it.

Minggu ini adalah minggu yang agak mandom, just because I miss him terribly after that wedding last weekend, and because of the stupid SSC (sorry, I'll just keep whining about it, so bear with me). Was supposed to go for bronchoscopy Wednesday morning, but didn't kerana I was feeling so miserable and grumpy. So duduk di atas katil tanpa bergerak. Nisa ajak, pegi town, but I was malas, and didn't want to go out. Nak buat kek, tapi tak cukup bahan (see that's an indication I'm feeling super stress because I want to cook/bake something yang leceh), so I ended up buat air mata kucing yang my mom posted like ages ago. Pastu makan mi kari Jiejah-Lenny yang sedap later that nite, selepas Jiejah datang untuk rasa air mata kucing dan baca gosip siti-makin-seksi di webkl.net

Nasib baik jugak tak pergi bronchoscopy tu sebab Claire kata the nurses was so unhelpful, and she didn't get to see one anyway. Dan pagi ini kami sepakat untuk tidak attend ward round, kerana Fiona kata ia sangat boring dan tidak mendatangkan faedah. Will have ENT teaching petang ini, jadi bleh submit SSC :)

Also, after cleaning up my room last saturday, I found my old internet cable yang cukup panjang untuk membawa laptop ke atas katil. So sekarang I can do work, watch youtube, chatting and surf sambil berehat di atas katil. takde laa sakit belakang lagi. Namun, natijahnya, I haven't moved from the bed dan tidak mengemas katil kecuali untuk ke toilet, atau dapur untuk mengambil makanan untuk di makan di atas katil. Nasib baiklah kat sini takde semut kalau tak, maunya bersarang semut kat katil ni sebab makan atas katil.

Got my JPA allowance last night and that JPA people still tak potong my allowance since I moved to university accommodation. So sekarang adalah sedikit risau kerana those extra money are not mine, jadi takut termakan. aiyooo. Tapi, because dah dapat duit, jadi malam ini mahu beronggeng dan order take away. Esok boleh start belajar dengan tekunnya. Semoga weekend ini sukses dan produktif untukku. aminnn. :::::

cinta medik

The first episode of Cinta medik sungguh menguji lagi mencabar minda.

• Khai is so not good looking with that hair yang kelihatan seperti ayam masuk longkang.
• All the actors/actresses cannot act apart from Khai's parents.
• the scenes were like.. WTH??? Like when Khai was trying to find his room, and he started asking people around - and what did the so-called 'senior' said? 'junior eh?? cari lah sendiri'. What kind of attitude is that??? Even in high-school people don't do that. The so-called 'ragging' don't start till after maghrib. AFTER you have settled down and managed to find your room, and lockers etc. The taklimat is done in a formal way. Only AFTER you break the rules, then they'll scold/get mad at you whatever. You're NOT lambat macam kura-kura just because you are the last batch who arrived at the college - with the college's bus!! duhhh!!
• and that Fikri. If that's a final year Medic student (I assume he's a medic student) who's going to be your doctor in a year's time... i dunno what else should I say. sighh!!

Saya sebagai seorang student doctor, berasa sungguh stress bila menonton cerita ini. Baiklah tengok cerita Dunia Baru, sekurang-kurangnya dapat menatap muka Muhammad Adif yang comel. sighhh.

Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyways. -- Anonymous

I am going to whine. again. so, so you can stop reading now if you're not up to it.

I HATE SSCs. I just can't bring myself to do it. And it's due this Friday. Why they keep wanting us to do SSCs is just beyond my understanding. I mean, come on, we've got finals in 2 and half months time, and here I am, trying to do some research and write a 1500 words essay on some investigations protocol that's been used for some time now. I don't mind the case presentations as stressful as it is, at least I got something out of it. and it's part of revision. But this, I've been doing everything I can to avoid doing it. Like now, for instance. I am actually hoping that the essay can miraculously appear from somewhere :p.

Planned to do it last weekend. Then I realised that we've got Emi and Siken wedding to attend to that afternoon. I completely forgot about it until Jiejah reminded me nite. And me being me, I know I won't be able to do any work if I were to go Saturady afternoon. So I ended up doing laundry and hoovering my room in the morning. Then Jiejah and Lenny came over after the ceremony, and we ended up chilling in Farid's room. Dah lama tak ada girl's night in like that. (Not to mention that I was feeling a bit blue and miserable and him-sick after the wedding - hence the much needed girls talk to keep my mind from it) So that's that.

We planned to watch Juara Lagu together on syoktv on Sunday, so I woke up early to do bits of revision before it (it's 1230 UK time). But the server was busy and we couldn't get connected. We were trying for almost an hour, before I gave up to watch American Idols on ITV1. How annoying!! And that just ruined my whole day. (yes, excuses, excuses and more excuses tskkk )

Anyway, me and Claire attended the most boring clinic ever, and I was so exhausted I yawned like every two minutes or so. We really shouldn't have come to it. tskk. That's today. Thank God we only got teaching in the afternoon tomorrow.

urghhhh... save me.. I am dying here....huhuhuhuhuhuhu :((. It's still quite a bit to go and I'm pancit already. aiyooo!!

tuesday blues

It's been a week and a bit since we started our new placement. So far it's been great. The timetable is not really hectic, as we tend to get afternoon off to do our own ward work or revision which is a bonus (compared to Farid's timetable, I'm really grateful with mine). Also, it's here in Leeds, walaupun perlu naik shuttle, at least I can sleep in my own room on my own bed (w/pun bilik adalah sangat bersepah, as usual -setelah 2 minggu tidak buat laundry and properly mengemas bilik). The 3rd years also just started their placements last week, so selalu lah jugak bertembung di kantin dan corridor.

Weekend adalah bermalasan, despite my aim to do work a few hours a day, that's just so hard to accomplish. Kadang-kadang rasa nak ada prep plak so that I'll be forced to do work. Nasib baiklah Fiona tu rajin, so at least I try to compete and put up with her, and let her talk me into doing work. haiyo.. somethings I'm still not able to change. Sigh. Like this weekend, I've wasted saturday doing nothing. Managed to do some work on Sunday wif repeat of Narutos as background sound (adalah sangat tak sesuai sebab naruto tu citer Jepun, hence kena read the translation) bad-bad. bleurgh!

Met Fatemah today, and we went to the FY1 teaching in LGI, Said she's gonna come over tonite, and I'm thinking of doing on-call wif her on Friday. Jadi boleh laa dia mengajar saya untuk menjadi seorang house officer yang berjaya. Di samping itu, it's just good to spend time with someone familiar. This whole getting-to-know-new-people business is tiring me up. I mean, we change placements every month, hence the new team, new hospital, new staffs every month. Sometimes, baru rasa nak settle down, dah kena tukar lagik. Sheeeshhhh. Malas betul.

But we've been lucky so far, alhamdulillah. Except for that unfortunate 'incident' in my first placement, the rest have been enjoyable. So I try not to whine too much. ;)

Anyway, note to me, myself and I: Sila sedar diri! huhuhuh.

_happy anniversary_

it's been 6 years since the day he said he likes me. from college to uni. malaysia-sheffield-leeds-malaysia. dari dating naik bas, sekarang dah bleh naik kereta ;). from little disputes to major arguments (hence the short-term break-ups :p). happy days to not-so-happy-days. the silly-teasings-lead-to-big-arguments days. the ego contests and the i'm-cuter-than-you competitions, not to mention the who's-gonna-put-the-phone-down arguments. the i-miss-you-i-wanna-talk-to-you-all-the-time and sorry-i'm-with-my-friends-i'll-call-you-back-later times. the tears and the laughters. yes, we were and are still two little kids (well, he's not really little :p).

it's been quite a journey, and i'm thankful that we're here. together.

To you, my love,
happy anniversary, and may Allah bless us with more of this day to celebrate. thank you for putting up with me, and may we be able to put up with each other for the many years ahead. i hope we've and we will grow up together without losing those kids in us.
I..L.O.V.E..Y.O.U.

tag.tag.tag

Mala tagged me aaaagess ago. here goes:

appearance:
depends on my mood. I prefer jeans and t-shirts, tapi sekarang sedang berusaha untuk jadi lebih feminine; hence the dresses and skirts :p. I won't miss the chance to wear baju kurung and kebaya too (memandangkan I always feels a bit too dressed-up if I wear baju kurung to the wards here - so only pakai during raya/events sahaja)

family/home life:
The eldest daughter with 4 elder brothers, a younger brother and a younger sister plus 2 sis-in-laws, a nephew, a niece and another one on the way :p. I got sick of them from time to time, but couldn't imagine living without the chaos - it'll be too quiet to my liking. Thanks to the distance, absence does make the heart grows fonder ;).

school/work:
I'm a proud Srikandi. Didn't really like it when I was there, but if I didn't go there, I don't think I'll be here. KMNS was okay, although I only spent a semester there. KMYS was better, very mewah compared to STF and KMNS(obviously). I'm a miserable final year student-doctor. and working life?? It's so scary I don't want to think about it just yet.

embarrassment:
sangat banyak. won't waste my and your time on it :p

traveling:
I've been to rome, venice, prague, amsterdam, germany, netherlands, vatican city, monaco, france, swiss, paris, london, and not to mention Kuala Lumpur.


experiences:
life is a roller coaster - although I do think my ride is not as bad as some people, but I did get my share. the end of one phase is the beginning of another, innit?


relationships:
currently engage to my first love (if u can call it love - we're still figuring out what the word means). my only experiences on the matter is from books or peoples' - but strangely enough people do ask my opinions about it. hmmmm....

crimes:
too many, and as mala put it : buat apa membuka pekung di dada, kan?

honesty:
is the best policy. But do think about it, before you spill out anything. sometimes secrets are better, but lies are not.

drugs/alcohol:
I'm a doctor- so I do believe in drugs. legally I mean. I don't believe in alcohol consumptions. moderately or not.

death and suicide:
death is a promise but suicide is not an option.

materialism:
they are important, but not essentials. learn to be thankful, but that doesn't mean you don't have to work for them. yes, ulat dalam batu pun boleh hidup, but that's because they eat the smaller bacteria-plankton-ulat whatever in the batu. they work to find it. you're a human with a higher intellectual function - the brain is not for decoration. use it!!

5 things i would do if i were a millionaire:
take my parents to Hajj with me, buy a house, buy a car, give some to my parents, spend some, save some.

5 bad habits:
procrastination. picking my nails when I'm bored. I like everything within reach;hence explained the untidiness of my room. sticking out my tongue, esp to younger kids like my nephew - which pisses my sis-in-law. laziness.

5 things i hate doing:
cleaning up. laundry. revision. waiting. things that I really have to do, which I haven't done because I procrastinate.

5 things i'll never do:
drink alcohol. smoking. suicide. that's all I can think of for the mo'

5 things i regret doing:
can't think of any

5 fave toys or things:
spongebob. my w550i. my laptop. the telly. my new make-up set :p

5 people this tag goes to:
whoever feels like doing it ;)

prague.prag.praha.praga

okay.. I did update on this last night, tapi entah kenapa, dia tak keluar pun kat blog. Macam dah save dah semalam, tp macam tak check, so tak tau lah mana pegi entry tu. Or maybe, aku terdelete entry tu by mistake. Sigh. Anyways, can't be bothered to write again, and pictures do speak louder than words. It was great fun. Despite the fact that the flight was delayed for 3 hours and we got there 5 hours later without luggage - I might add. But we were two happy bunnies. Time and money well spent ;)