..bittersweet..

as of today,
the 30th March 2007,
if the exams go well,
and the results come back 'positive' in two months time,

today, will mark the end of my clinical medicine teaching
of course, i still have a week of lectures next week
about 10 days of study break
4 days of osces and written exams
another two weeks of break
followed by two weeks of shadowing (which might only be a few days for me, since I'm not working here)

if all goes well, insyaAllah
the next time i go back to the wards (if not as patient/ patient's relative)
will be as a junior doctor..
unbelievable?
believe it!

when the end is near,
the beginning seems even closer
scary?
more than words can describe
i don't think i'm ready
but maybe i will never be ready

if you ask,
i still don't know for sure why, or how i get this far
there are moments when i just want to drop everything and run away
far far away..

but i am here, now
i believe that there are reasons why i made it this far
and better plans that Allah have in store for me
and with time, it will all become clearer

as for the moment, a step at a time..
let me pass the exams first..aminnn
and i'll deal with the rest when the time come.
just a few little steps more..aite? :)

carpe diem!