Got interview with SPA in Manchester tomorrow. Jadi sekarang sedang prepare (kononnya lah), although am not entirely sure what to prepare. I know they gonna ask me questions that I don't have the answer to, like 'why do you want to be a doctor?', apa nak jawab ye? My consultant once told me, if you get lost somewhere in the middle of your medical career, think back, and remind yourself of the reasons why. They should guide you back on track. After five years, I'm still not entirely sure why. Not for fame and money, I can assure you that. To help people? I guess. Partly. Mainly, its fate. He showed me the way, and I survived till now. Even during the deepest, darkest hours when I just want to leave everything and fled, I stayed, and here I am. As I said, He must have something in store for me, and I will find it out, right?

I'm also lacking enthusiasm. I mean, my results not out yet, so I've been putting my life on hold at the minute. I've made plans, and hopefully I will be able to carry them out. If not, maybe I should just follow Zack's advice; gali lubang and nyorok bawah tanah. God forbid! Tapi sekarang kena pegi ini interview, jadi adalah tak bersemangat. Kena ingat amik gamba passport esok pagi kat booth yang mahal. Ke mungkin patut keluar sekarang, kang tak sempat pulak esok pagi-pagi subuh?? Malas laa nak siap-siap untuk keluar. huhuhuhu.

Apa pun, wish me luck, peeps!