of ketam-ketam yang dengki, of losing the precious

adalah banyak benda yang nak ditulis, but words seems inadequate. ermm where shall I start?

Have you heard the story about ketam Melayu and ketam Cina yang duduk dalam satu bekas, dan cuba untuk keluar? at the end, ketam Cina berjaya keluar tapi ketam Melayu tidak. Sebabnya, ketam-ketam Cina saling bantu-membantu untuk keluar, tapi ketam Melayu sibuk berlumba-lumba untuk menjatuhkan sesama sendiri, sampai akhirnya takde siapa pun yang berjaya. Sedih, kan?

A friend almost lost her job because of some ketam-ketam yang tidak boleh nampak orang lain senang. She was new, but well-liked by the bosses. She haven't done anything except being efficient and dedicated. And she blogged. Her being her, she wrote about current issues, a bit about her job, and you know the usual stuff, things that bother her, wrote about some sensitive issues. To be fair, it's still relatively mild, compared to some other bloggers, but it's there. Somehow, the bosses knew about it. She almost got kicked out of the team. And they asked her to stop writing.

Sad, kan? Simply because you're too good at what you do, you lost one of the most precious thing in your life. The thing that saddened me the most is the fact that the bosses wouldn't know if nobody told them. To be fair, if she really broke the rule - and had accidentally spill some company secrets in the blog, the person who knew that she blogged can just warned her. No need to be nasty, spreading rumours and brought it straight to the bosses, right? Just because she's too good at what she does, they have to lower themselves to that level. I am sad, because they call themselves 'professionals' or 'golongan intelek', when the way they act like they're still in high school. Pity. very sad indeed.

rasanya dah habis kemas dah kot
semua dah dlm beg/kotak/ plastik
dah penuh 2 kotak besar
ada satu lagi kotak besar,
rasa macam kena return aje kotak tu
sebab dah takde barang lain dah kot
semoga selamat barang-barang dalam kotak

terpaksa meninggalkan bear gemok itu
yang telah menemani selama 5 tahun
walaupun tahun ni dia asyik kena duduk kat noti corner
nasib baik jijah sudi nak adopt
kalau tak, tak tau lah
nak bawak balik macam besar sangat,
dia aje dah separuh kotak besar..huhuhu

hmm petang ni pindah barang
esok nak pegi aberdeen

hmmmm siannn bebear gemokkk

..aduhai bangsaku..

I was waiting for Farid this morning when I stumbled on this article yang bertajuk:

Juara AF4 kandas ujian memandu di jalan raya

KUALA BERANG: Dengan disaksikan lebih 300 peminatnya, Juara Akademi Fantasia 4 (AF4), Faizal atau Mohd Faizal Ramli, 23, gagal dalam ujian memandu yang diambilnya di Sekolah Memandu PSM Academy cawangan Ajil di sini, semalam.......

klik lah link kat atas tu untuk baca berita selanjutnya.

Dan sesungguhnya, aku tak mampu untuk memberikan sebarang komen bila berita ini adalah berita utama di harian metro hari ini. Mungkinkah kita memang ketandusan berita, atau kah wartawan tidak berjumpa berita, ataukah kita memang merasakan berita sebegini penting untuk jadi tajuk utama????



I rest my case..

Semalam tidur lambat
sebab hati tak keruan
jadi berlepak-kan dengan Jiejah sambil tengok citer Korea
dan masak soto yang terlebih rempah
juga buat kek batik

tidur lambat jadi adalah bangun lambat
sebenarnya rasa tak nak bangun
orang ajak pegi school, tapi adalah tak nak jumpa orang
not before knowing it, anyway

pukul 1130 am, check nathan bodington -the virtual learning centre
tapi takde lagik
lepas tu, pukul 1230 tetiba gatal
jadi bukak nathan bodington lagi skali

tiba-tiba kena palpitations
laju ok!
terus tuju kat pass list
A, B C sampai H.. slowly
I.. Ibrahim.. yey!!!
I made it!!
M...Mansor, L..Lok, Abdul Razak, Pang, Kulanth, West, Urquhart..
We made it, Alhamdulillah

jadi terus bangun gosok gigi (sebab dari bangun belum bergerak dr katil)
dan ketuk pintu Farid dan Nisa macam orang giler
Juga menjerit macam orang giler
serta melompat-lompat macam orang giler - ok, tak sesuai, but who cares
Adalah sangat happy
Jadi Mak ngan Ayah boleh datang sini
dan tak perlu gali lubang nyorok bawah tanah

Yeayyy!! yeay!! dan yeay lagi!!!!






Ok - sekarang pegi mandi! busukk!!
Juga esok kena ingat untuk amik degree pack + submit shadowing form.
Yeay!! *senyum sampai telinga*

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Selamat Pengantin Baru, Pak Lah!

Adalah sedang menunggu subuh, tapi rasanya sudah terbatal wuduk.

Perut adalah sangat kenyang. Went out to Red Chilli with Aishin and Kamarul. Chinese Restaurant yang sangat sedap since the food are from Beijing, so it's more hot and spicy = better for my taste buds compared to the usual Cantonese dishes. Since the meat is not halal, we ordered hot poached seabass, scallop with celery and pepper and kangkung belacan. Served with boiled rice and chinese tea. Banyak, and sangat sedap. Juga reasonably priced. Rasa macam makan kat rumah sebab dia hidang lauk. Thanks to Aishin sebab rekomen kan tempat tu. Wish I know about it sooner.

Then wanted to go to Fats place afterwards to play with Chutta, her Rabbit. But she was working late, so I brought Aishin to my place. Dah lama tak jumpa, so we borak-borak. Was talking about those people yang terlalu mengagung-agungkan orang putih macam lah diorang tu 100% perfect. (Refer previous entry). Pissed me off big time. Sigh.

Ermmm.. interview went well. Well, to be fair, they got our job offer ready already, and the interview was a matter of formality. 5 of us (me and Kamarul and another 3 from Manchester). Supposed to be 8, but 3 didn't turn up. 4 panels, 2 from SPA (Dato' Abdullah, and lagi sorang Dato' tak ingat nama) and 2 from Kementerian Kesihatan (Dr Ng and Datin Dr Nurain). Was a bit bengang sebab the letter said 8am, so we took the 622am train from Leeds to get to Manchester for 730am, but bila sampai, dia kat they won't start till 9am. Sheeshh.. rugi sejam time tdo. Dah laa kena bangun like 5 am.

Anyways, the first hour was spent with us interviewing them, about the working hours, specialities, and wages and stuff. Then after 5 mins break, baru start interview. It was ok, I think, since its forum like, takde lah rasa gabra sangat, although one of the guys macam banyak cakap, and sedikit mengovershadow orang lain, but we were given equal opportunity. Then, bila diskusi tu, boleh laa chip in, and bleh stop bila dah takde point, bagi orang lain sambung laks. heheh

The questions were about general stuff, like kempen kesihatan, then adalah soklan pasal common diseases, and the differences between here and back home. And again, ada juga lah komen yang aku rasa seperti mengagungkan UK nih, hence was geram. Tapi cam malas nak counterattack. Besides, the interviewer dah counter balik dah. Also was asked about erti merdeka, in which I said, merdeka dari penjajahan minda, dan tidak perlu to westernised diri untuk jadi orang yang berjaya. hohohoho..Then they asked about unity, touch a bit on RMK 9, and why students don't want to go back to Malaysia. We finished about 12. I was starving and perut dah berbunyi-bunyi dah masa interview :p

Then afterward gi Rosehulm (tatau betul eja ke tak) for Lunch. Had Chicken Quze; Lebanese meal yang sedap dan kenyang giler. Ingat nak round town straight after, tapi perut penuh, so we ended up sitting at the Picaddily Gardens for an hour. Pastu jalan-jalan town, jumpa beg oren yang sangat cantik kat Jane Norman, tapi tak sale, jadi tokleh beli. huhuhu.

Alhamdulillah, I now got the surat perlantikan jawatan as a pegawai perubatan, provided I pass the exams. And results not out till next Thursday. I am tired of waiting already. Hopefully, it'll all go well, otherwise kena lah gali lubang and menyorok dalam tanah.

And yeah, I'm happy Pak Lah decided to get married. As Jijah pointed out, 'dia dah jaga satu negara, biarlah ada orang jaga dia pulak' ;). So Selamat Pengantin Baru, Pak Lah and Jeanne, moga bahagia sampai syurga :D

Got interview with SPA in Manchester tomorrow. Jadi sekarang sedang prepare (kononnya lah), although am not entirely sure what to prepare. I know they gonna ask me questions that I don't have the answer to, like 'why do you want to be a doctor?', apa nak jawab ye? My consultant once told me, if you get lost somewhere in the middle of your medical career, think back, and remind yourself of the reasons why. They should guide you back on track. After five years, I'm still not entirely sure why. Not for fame and money, I can assure you that. To help people? I guess. Partly. Mainly, its fate. He showed me the way, and I survived till now. Even during the deepest, darkest hours when I just want to leave everything and fled, I stayed, and here I am. As I said, He must have something in store for me, and I will find it out, right?

I'm also lacking enthusiasm. I mean, my results not out yet, so I've been putting my life on hold at the minute. I've made plans, and hopefully I will be able to carry them out. If not, maybe I should just follow Zack's advice; gali lubang and nyorok bawah tanah. God forbid! Tapi sekarang kena pegi ini interview, jadi adalah tak bersemangat. Kena ingat amik gamba passport esok pagi kat booth yang mahal. Ke mungkin patut keluar sekarang, kang tak sempat pulak esok pagi-pagi subuh?? Malas laa nak siap-siap untuk keluar. huhuhuhu.

Apa pun, wish me luck, peeps!