..bila bahagia mula menyentuh, seakan bisa ku hidup lebih lama..

I'm post call, and managed to put adam to sleep by 8pm. Dah lama nak update blog, but haven't got the luxury. Oh well, maybe I still didn't have a proper time-management, and stiil tend to procrastinate. Old habits die hard, huh?!

Adam is going to be 4-month young in a couple of days. Macam dah besar sgt je. Dah mula memanjat2 bila dukung and da pandai meniarap and angkat punggung. Sangat pandai tgk tv ok! I let him watched upin ipin the other day and he watched it sampai air liur meleleh dan tersenyum sorang-sorang. I guess he likes the high pitch voices of the characters. heh ;) adalah kelakar. seperti ada toy yang sangat expressive. Oh, not to mention when he starts to angkat punggung to move forward, adalah seperti ulat yang comel. hahahaha. tetapi adalah kurang comel bila dia mahu main, but I'm too sleepy to play, jadi dia mengamuk for attention. Or when he wants to play during feeding time then tiba-tiba lapar tak terhingga, dan susu lambat sampai. jadi mengamuk kerana tidak sabar. kurang comel :p

Managed to breastfeed till today, eventhough Adam already started to take S26 last couple of weeks as I don't have enough EBM stocks during oncall. Nak buat macam mana, he's growing fast, and if I come back late post-call he sure won't have enough to drink. But then again, we keep it to very minimum, maybe 1-2 feeds each time i'm oncall, which is about 2-3x/ week. Oh well, I planned to start weaning him next month as he already shows the signs. kepala dah tegak, kaki dah masuk mulut plus he looked so sedey when we eat and he only got to watch..hahaha. Managed to make Erin nervous being watched while eating. haha.

Kena attend ACLS (Advanced cardiac life support course) this weekend, but I've yet to read the book. DAh beli for the past 2 weeks but i didn't have the heart to read it. Dah lah wajib lulus. sheesh.. kerana sudah bayar rm330 utk course itu, jadi adalah kena lulus. Malasnyaaaa...

i'm still thinking about what I want to do in the future. Now the only thing that I feel like is staying home and jaga Adam, but would that be a waste? I mean the money spent to go abroad do medicine and then jadi housewife dan bukak online business. Or to further study in.. i'm not sure yet, but that means that I might have to leave Adam behind. Other option is not to further study and jadi...chronic MO. Tapi MO is hard work. Or go out to klinik kesihatan and do office-hour job. Macam menarik. Ntah lah.. i've yet to decide.. *-*

Kesimpulannya, sekarang adalah waktu untuk solat dan tdo awal, kerana mata saya sudah tak mampu diangkat lagi. till then ;)