setelah sekian lama..

Aku baru sedar, dah lebih 2 bulan rupanya aku tak mengapdet blog nih. Dari lepas konvo, balik kampung, sampai lah sekarang nih. Macam-macam dah jadi, tapi macam takde apa yang terjadi juga.

Sekarang ni, aku tgh jadi surirumah sepenuh masa aka bibik tade gaji. hohoho. Dari sehari ke seharai nak pegi putrajay tu, tapi tak pegi-pegi jugak. Orang pun dah start tanya bila laa aku ni nak mula berbakti. Nanti lah dulu yek, bila tiba masanya akan ku buat jua. Cuma cepat atau lambat aje. Sekarang ni aku nak berbakti pada mak ayah dulu, esok-esok dah start keja, takut nak jumpa pintu rumah pun susah..hehhehe.

Aktiviti harian adalah mengemas rumah dan memasak, di samping bergaduh dengan kucing-kucing dan juga angin keran sibuk meniupkan sampah yang aku dah sapu, masuk balik dalam umah. nyehnyeh. tapi bulan puasa nih, aku tak masak sgt. mak yang masak. tapi sekarangg ni dah start buat kuih pulak. kuih tako aka tepung pelita di hujung minggu atau bila ada orang tempah dan jugak, kuih raya. Esok rasanya nak start buat dodol. Barang-barang dah sampai tadi.

So, kepada sesaper yang nak beli dodol, boleh laa tempah. Kitorang jual sekilo/ setengah kilo punya pack. Sekilo RM 14. Buatan sendiri. Dulu-dulu kacau pakai tangan, tapi dah tekno sket, kitorang pakai mesin. tapi rasa masih sedap lagik. (heheh sempat tu buat promo)

okielah, aku nak tengok liontin. tata

..twenty..O..seven..O..seven..

After 5 years:

Yang mungkin tak tergapai tanpa mereka:

Alhamdulillah, it went well.
May I be blessed with the courage to make this work,
Aminnn...

~bob the builder..can we fix it??~

Mak ngan Ayah akan sampai esok, InsyaAllah. Semoga selamat sampai bersama barang-barang.. aminnn.

I've been spending the past 3 days with Izzati, a one and half which acts like a 3 years-old, except that she can't talk properly yet. Sangat penat dan sedikit bosan. And it's not a good sign when I woke up with teletubbies song all day long, ain't it? Adalah tidak begitu susah the first 2 days, but today dia adalah banyak dengki sama gue. Everytime I tried to read, she'll come and grab the book, and read it too (upside-down, I might add). Then when I sit on the sofa, she'l menyibuk-nyibuk juga. Not to mention the countless time I have to change the dvd from teletubbies-postman pat-tweenies-and-whatever she have just to keep her company. I'm frustrated, and she's frustrated too kot, sbb 3 hari tak keluar rumah. Hai lah.. kalu kat Mesia, bleh laa jugak ku bawak keluar pegi taman permainan. Kat sini, main sensorang kat backyard je lah. Itu pun nasib baik laa umah nih ada backyard. Bottomline is, I so can't be a full-time mother. Buleh sakit jiwa..huhuhuhu.

But then, she's a darling too. Like when I scolded her, and she realised that I'm mad, then she'll come and hug me with that big melting smile. Juga bila dia mendodoikan aku dengan selawat nabi. Juga bila dia datang dan peluk without reason. Adalah geram. Oh well, at least esok K oja cuti, so adalah orang lain. Ini duduk 2 orang. Hari-hari tengok muka sendiri je, dia pun tau boring gak. hehehhe....
Camner laa aku nak ada anak sendiri nih?? Susah ok, jaga anak!! sheeshhhh!!

Sharm is doing a midnight walk for a hospice in Wakefield. Feel free to donate.

..all by myself.....

I am in Southampton, safe and sound. Despite the bomb scare in London yesterday afternoon, which caused me some delay, I managed to get here a bit past mid-night, 2 hours later than scheduled. K oja and Abg Zul went to some camping in a forest somewhere. Tapi adalah malas nak ikut kerana penat. Jadi sekarang sedikit sangap. Thinking of going to town. Tapi kat luar tu cuaca mandom, konfem sejuk. Jadi malas juga. Nasib baik berjaya on pc, although tadi struggle laa jugak awal2 tu.

Hai lah.. dah lah rakan2 yang kat soton ni sumer nye balik Malaya. Kesangapan lah beta untuk 2-3 minggu nih. Nasib baik lah rumah ni ada sky. Dekat dengan town juga. Maybe next week bleh start explore the city. at least tahu jalan dekat-dekat.

Rasa nak beli tiket untuk gi Manchester next week. Tapi prospect utk naik coach lagi 10 jam adalah rasa tidak mampu. Bagaimana ye? But I so want to go and see Fats. Sigh!! Indecision. Susah betul. Juga rumah untuk mak ayah kat Leeds, macam belum jumpa. Kena plan iterinary (btul ke eja? macam salah) diorang juga. Ermm.. nasib ada 2 weeks ++ lagi. sempat lah rasanya

Kemalasan melanda.

so many to do.. so little time
but i supposed i'd never have enough time anyway

came back from aberdeen, happy and sad
somehow 5 days is too short when you spend it with the right people :)
miss them already
it was fun indeed
didn't really go to many places
just hanging out and chilling
masak dan makan
berborak dan berborak lagi
plus helped shauqi with his revision
made some new friends
i even thought of staying a bit longer
but I can't

Need to go down South this friday
planned to go on tuesday, but have to go earlier
can't even meet Fats since she's on leave this week
She asked me to go to Manchester next weekend
hope I'll be able to go and see her then

Now I feel like I don't wanna go home too soon
It's another big step
and I am so not ready
but I never really was anyway

ermm if only I can stop time and enjoy this moment a bit longer


with niza, zack and murni at Nunu's place

bukit dan air

the driver + best friend

wif Niza and Nunu
Partner tido + host yang baik hati :)

of ketam-ketam yang dengki, of losing the precious

adalah banyak benda yang nak ditulis, but words seems inadequate. ermm where shall I start?

Have you heard the story about ketam Melayu and ketam Cina yang duduk dalam satu bekas, dan cuba untuk keluar? at the end, ketam Cina berjaya keluar tapi ketam Melayu tidak. Sebabnya, ketam-ketam Cina saling bantu-membantu untuk keluar, tapi ketam Melayu sibuk berlumba-lumba untuk menjatuhkan sesama sendiri, sampai akhirnya takde siapa pun yang berjaya. Sedih, kan?

A friend almost lost her job because of some ketam-ketam yang tidak boleh nampak orang lain senang. She was new, but well-liked by the bosses. She haven't done anything except being efficient and dedicated. And she blogged. Her being her, she wrote about current issues, a bit about her job, and you know the usual stuff, things that bother her, wrote about some sensitive issues. To be fair, it's still relatively mild, compared to some other bloggers, but it's there. Somehow, the bosses knew about it. She almost got kicked out of the team. And they asked her to stop writing.

Sad, kan? Simply because you're too good at what you do, you lost one of the most precious thing in your life. The thing that saddened me the most is the fact that the bosses wouldn't know if nobody told them. To be fair, if she really broke the rule - and had accidentally spill some company secrets in the blog, the person who knew that she blogged can just warned her. No need to be nasty, spreading rumours and brought it straight to the bosses, right? Just because she's too good at what she does, they have to lower themselves to that level. I am sad, because they call themselves 'professionals' or 'golongan intelek', when the way they act like they're still in high school. Pity. very sad indeed.