..kacak luar, kacak dalam, kacak dengar sini..kalau saya senyum, awak mesti senyum sekali..

Baru bercita-cita nak update blog dengan panjang lebar, tapi si budak kenit sudah bangun. He's happily sitting on my lap though, hisap jari, so let's see how far can we go ;)



Adam is already 6 months plus, and alhamdulillah I'm still able to breastfeed him. Not 100%, as he does requires an occasional topup of S-26 if I'm oncall, but minimally. and now he will actually sembur the FM sbb tak suka. sabar je lah. It is not an easy journey, but it's enough. There are few things that I wish I could change though. Like;



1. I wish I stocked up a lot of milk during pantang time. I had about 20, and they all finished up within 3 weeks of going back to work. Orang da cakap suruh simpan byk2, and I thought 20 was a lot. Boo me! :p



2. I wish I can have the leisure of 3-hourly pumping session at work. but that is not possible. I'm thankful to squeeze that 20 mins pumping session during office hours. 2 sessions is always a bonus. And if I'm oncall, 5 sessions in 24 hours. Though very tiring, I felt guilty if Adam had to have FM at home. I was a bit down the first time we decided to buy FM as my EBM was not enough for that day. But I guess that was one of the best decision we made, as I was not worrying about Adam not having enough milk, my milk production increase significantly after. :)

3. Can someone pump for me please??? I am just so tired sometimes, pumping feels like a chores. Ok, itu karut haha :p

Apapun, I'm thankful to have such a supportive husband who packs my milk bag every morning. Thank you, dear :)

Ok that's all for now. I really need to stop before this cheeky boy pull out the modem, again !!

happy chinese new year

yeay! now can update using my i-pon, so hopefully can update more often.
let's see if this thing works well or not ;)
tp bagaimana mau insert gamba ye??? tade icon add gamba pon @.@

..bila bahagia mula menyentuh, seakan bisa ku hidup lebih lama..

I'm post call, and managed to put adam to sleep by 8pm. Dah lama nak update blog, but haven't got the luxury. Oh well, maybe I still didn't have a proper time-management, and stiil tend to procrastinate. Old habits die hard, huh?!

Adam is going to be 4-month young in a couple of days. Macam dah besar sgt je. Dah mula memanjat2 bila dukung and da pandai meniarap and angkat punggung. Sangat pandai tgk tv ok! I let him watched upin ipin the other day and he watched it sampai air liur meleleh dan tersenyum sorang-sorang. I guess he likes the high pitch voices of the characters. heh ;) adalah kelakar. seperti ada toy yang sangat expressive. Oh, not to mention when he starts to angkat punggung to move forward, adalah seperti ulat yang comel. hahahaha. tetapi adalah kurang comel bila dia mahu main, but I'm too sleepy to play, jadi dia mengamuk for attention. Or when he wants to play during feeding time then tiba-tiba lapar tak terhingga, dan susu lambat sampai. jadi mengamuk kerana tidak sabar. kurang comel :p

Managed to breastfeed till today, eventhough Adam already started to take S26 last couple of weeks as I don't have enough EBM stocks during oncall. Nak buat macam mana, he's growing fast, and if I come back late post-call he sure won't have enough to drink. But then again, we keep it to very minimum, maybe 1-2 feeds each time i'm oncall, which is about 2-3x/ week. Oh well, I planned to start weaning him next month as he already shows the signs. kepala dah tegak, kaki dah masuk mulut plus he looked so sedey when we eat and he only got to watch..hahaha. Managed to make Erin nervous being watched while eating. haha.

Kena attend ACLS (Advanced cardiac life support course) this weekend, but I've yet to read the book. DAh beli for the past 2 weeks but i didn't have the heart to read it. Dah lah wajib lulus. sheesh.. kerana sudah bayar rm330 utk course itu, jadi adalah kena lulus. Malasnyaaaa...

i'm still thinking about what I want to do in the future. Now the only thing that I feel like is staying home and jaga Adam, but would that be a waste? I mean the money spent to go abroad do medicine and then jadi housewife dan bukak online business. Or to further study in.. i'm not sure yet, but that means that I might have to leave Adam behind. Other option is not to further study and jadi...chronic MO. Tapi MO is hard work. Or go out to klinik kesihatan and do office-hour job. Macam menarik. Ntah lah.. i've yet to decide.. *-*

Kesimpulannya, sekarang adalah waktu untuk solat dan tdo awal, kerana mata saya sudah tak mampu diangkat lagi. till then ;)

back-to-work-blues

pejam-celik-pejam-celik, esok genap umur Adam 2 bulan. Sekejap je rasa...macam baru je ari tu rasa Adam tendang2 dlm perut macam ulat-besar-yang-bergerak-nak-klua :P..masuk-spital-kena-operate; makan siang di bulan posa (tskk sebulan nak kna ganti tuuu).. dah abis dah maternity leave. ari isnin dah nak start keja balik..huhuhuhu. Masih terkilan sbb breastfeeding leave yang tidak berbayar itu tidak di approve oleh bos.. hai lah nasibla keja mcm ni, nak cuti pun susah. mintak cuti tade gaji pun tak bleh. Sheeshhh....Masa ni lah rasa bestnya keja kat UK, dpt 6 bulan maternity leave. syok abissss.. apakan daya cuti 90 ari masih blum diluluskan. Kalu tak, bahagianya rasa hati..

Adam dah pandai ketawa + tegur orang. Sangat yummy rasa macam nak makan. kena pulak bila bgn pukul 3-4 pagi nak minum susu, sempat bagi satu-senyum-bagi-mama-cair-dulu-baru-minum-susu..adalah sangat comel. :)) Hari ni dia tdo2 ayam je dari pagi. tadi pagi2 K Long Alya dah dtg nak duduk sini main ngan Adam, Pastu lunch Yaya dtg bwk KFC. Ni baru laa senyap sbb K long dah ikut Yaya balik umah nenek. Jadi pagi tadi ada anak instant sorang lagi. (sebenarnya selalu je K Long tu jd anak instant sampai mak dia suruh bungkus kain baju duduk sini terus hahah :p). Jadi Adam baru lah nak lelapkan mata sambil jeling2 manja kat mama dia yang sibuk layan internet. (Pasni mama nak join plak ;p)

Berdebar2 nak start keja ari isnin. Dengarnya ari selasa dah onkol, tp jadual tak klua lagi, jadi tak konpem laa lagi. Plan untuk Bfeed selama yang mampu (kalu ikut mama dia, bfeed sampai 3 thn, tak penah minum formula, jd sampai tua tak minum susu warna putih haha :p). semoga dipermudahkan usaha. Semoga saya bertabah dan cekal hati. aminnnn. Kemudian kena truskan usaha untuk berpuasa waktu org tak puasa pulak. tapi tu nanti dulu lah. Masa keja senang sket nak posa..heheh

Sebenarnya dah berapa kali nak apdet blog, tapi biasalah kan, suka tangguh2. Bulan puasa, lepas tu raya (sempat lah Adam berjalan raya tahun ni, w/pun cuma pegi umah yang ada open house je..itu pun 2-3 umah je)..masih tak sedar yang diri tak bleh bertangguh keja lepas ada budak kenit ni, kalau tak alamatnya lari sume schedule..almaklum bila hidup sekitar budak kenit comel yang keja minun-tdo-main-minum-berak..tentulah dia jadi Adam, namamu teratas, kan? tapi tu lah, sifat mazmumah yang sungguh sukar di kikis...heheh. Nak cerita pasal delivery pun tak tertulis..hehhh..nantilahh

Oklah..budak kenit tu dah bangun nak minum susu.. ;)

argggghhhh... I accidentally deleted my earlier posts this year!!!!! I should've leave the blog as it is and not trying to touch anything.. demmmmm!!

There are three reasons for breast-feeding: the milk is always at the right temperature; it comes in attractive containers; and the cat can't get it.

Saya keseorangan di rumah. Mendapat cuti tanpa diminta adalah satu kelebihan, tetapi tidak mendapat cuti apabila diminta, adalah memang menyakitkan hati.. Apapun, saya bersyukur kerana diberi cuti rehat yang saya perlukan di saat ini. Tapi hubby adalah sedang bekerja dan laundry masih belum siap lagi, jadi tak boleh telefon adik untuk ambil saya balik rumah mak. Jadi saya berblog sambil menonton parenthood. Mungkin sekejap lagi akan packing barang untuk bawa balik ke rumah mak. Sementara saya ada driver dan tukang angkat barang.hahaha.

Our next checkup is this Friday. Saya adalah agak nervous sebenarnya. Kalau ikut date, I'm 4 days post date, but if I were to follow my scan date, we still have about 2 weeks. However the placenta is already calcified, means it's term already and the Dr doesn't want to wait for too long, hence the checkup this Friday. And I am tired of people asking me the same questions over and over again hingga membuatkan saya rasa sgt marah bila terjumpa Anna pagi semalam, and she said ' eh, btul laa awak tak beranak lagi!!', I felt like kicking her there and then. I shrugged off the question and quickly get into the car sebelum saya mengatakan sesuatu yang menyakitkan hati..huhuhuhu. I'm thinking of taking early maternity leave, but that means I would be staying at home and stressing out, but going to work means I have to meet people and cannot escape the question. Sigh!! Bosannya saya!!!

Juga, being in medical field and knowing things that could've happened, or shouldn't have happened adalah lebih mengerikan. Meski saya cuba untuk berlagak tak kisah supaya tidak merisaukan hubby dan diri sendiri, tapi sebenarnya saya adalah gusar. Semoga semuanya berjalan lancar..aminnnnn

On a different note, saya bermimpi beranak di rumah seorang diri. bukan laa seorang diri, ada orang but everyone were asleep, I was standing up, and realise my belly is not as big anymore, so the baby was sliding out, knock himself and cried, and there I was waking people up, and my first thought was, it's BBA (born-before-arrival to hospital) and he's going to be admitted to nursery, and I need someone to cut the cord. Apakah???? I told my staff in clinic, and Abg Tan started asking me my house number, It took me a while before I realised he's going going to buy sport's toto. duhhhh!! Adalah bendul! Oh baby, please come out soon or mommy will be having more weird dreams .. :p

happy new year 2010

I am watching reruns of American Idol and The Nanny on Astro. Almost missed my Subuh prayer and then couldn't get back to sleep as I was already hungry. Hubby went to work already so I fixed myself an instant porridge and hot milo for breakfast. It sucks when you had to spend holidays alone when your husband had to go to work. Oh well, imagined the weekends he had to spend without me..

Time flew so fast. at new year 10 years ago I was still... ermm where was I? Just finished high school and took a full-time job of taking care of the house and my elder brother, while my parents went to work. Waiting for SPM results, not even sure whether I could make it through.. oh I know I'll get to further my studies somehow, doing.. I don't even know what I'll be doing then. I was always the lucky one, managed to score straight A's for my UPSR and PMR, but SPM, I think that was really tough. I called home almost crying after my physics paper 'coz I've no idea what I was answering back then. I almost cried kerana saya adalah orang yang akan cuba sedaya upaya utk tidak menangis di depan ibubapa saya.

To be at where I am now, was not even in my dreams. Ok maybe I did think that I'll be a professional, get a good job, earned good money. But be a doctor? errmmm..maybe.. i'd study locally though. And to fly to the UK to further my study? That was never in my wildest dreams... yes, it happens to other people but not me. So, I am thankful to Allah for giving me this opportunity. I almost thought that I would never be able to fly when that kerani in KMYS told me that I got 2B's and a C for my a-level. Saya menangis sepanjang jln ke kolej in public transport and Zack's car. Thank god she read a wrong results, dunno who's. If not I won't be here, now, aite?

As for now, I am content, and counting my blessings.

Happy new year, folks! May we have a blessed year ahead :)