of my little person..and my tiny little baby....

fuhhhh fuuhhhh... bersawang di sana sini. azam tahun baru adalah mahu cuba apdet blog selalu. mampukah? hehe mari kita tgk :p

Anak teruna saya dah mencecah 17 bulan semalam. 1year and 5 months flew so quickly macam tak terasa. He is now his own little person. Walaupun buat masa sekarang dia masih belum berkata-kata, cuma 'apak' 'amak' 'mamamapapapak' tanpa perbezaan. nasib lah siapa yang jadi mak atau pak, tapi dia tahu apa yang dia mahu. Kalau tak nak, maka taknaklah (beserta gelengan kepala yang laju), dan kalau nak tu, haruslah tak boleh dihalang. mahu lebam dahi dihantuk kepala kat dinding/ lantai. nasib baik hobi menakutkan itu dah makin berkurangan sekarang hehh.

Dia juga makin bijak bergurau, entertaining us with his 'antiques'. Pura-pura jual mahal bila dipanggil, kemudian tersenyum manis tunjuk gigi kapak yang besar. oh, juga sudah pandai tersipu-sipu bila ditegur kakak atau kawan yg cantik yer. haish, belajar ngorat ikut siapa ntah.

oh, and ge definitely know how to get our attention. jika saya sibuk bersama smartphone, atau membaca, he will take those things away and asked me to look in his direction. he makes sure that i look too!! not too mention our phones are actually his. haruslah tak boleh surf tenet kalau dia mahu pakai tepon, kan?

and he loves nature. animals, trees, flowers. one day at the peads clinic, kerana tak mahu dirolak oleh budak2 yg lebih besar maka saya terpaksa mengalih perhatiannya dari tempat permainan. boleh je dia duduk mencangkung mengadap pokok bunga sambil mengira bunga. and the excitement bila dia jumpa patung ayam nandos itu. tapi binatang kesukaan haruslah kambing. the first animal sound that he copied. jadi kami blikan dia seekor kambing, letak di kandang abang saya, semoga berkembang biak. aminnn.

Dan si kecil ini, sudah 20 minggu. sekejap rasanya, berbanding pregnancy pertama. mungkin kerana ada abang mengisi masa-masa senggang, maka tak begitu terasa penantiannya. Sekarang pun, kalau nak tidur mesti adam akan meraba-raba perut sambil mencubit-cubit lemak di perut saya. kerana itu, saya letak tangannya dan ajak dia berbual-bual dgn adiknya. ajar dia cium dan sayang adik. semoga bila dah besar, mereka tak cemburu dan sayang menyayang.

dah mula terasa quickening dari minggu ke-16. awal berbanding adam. masa adam dulu, dah 22 minggu baru rasa quickening. mungkin sebab dah pernah rasa, jadi dah ada pengalaman kot? hehehe. cuma kali ini saya sering kurang sihat. iasyik batuk selsema. sekarang paling teruk, batuk sampai hilang suara.acam mana nak kerja esok, saya pun tak tahu. tp tak boleh cuti sebab orang lain sibuk cuti anak nak masuk sekolah. haish. semiga pesakit tak takut dengar suara dan bunyi batuk saya yg teruk itu. huhuhu.

go green

i have been wanting to blog about this for a while now, but didn't have the time.

During the last month of my pregnancy, i was put in charged of the anaesthetic clinic. Having quite a lot of free time, ( u see, it was one of the quiet months, just before puasa and raya), i spent a lot of my time surfing for baby stuff. All that I need and want but don't need. heh. So I came across cloth diapers and cloth pads.

I like the idea of using cloth - mainly because it's money-friendly, and eco-friendly (yeah right, mcm laa selama ni ecofriendly sgt pun :p). Also the fact that they're cute on babies' bum. hehe. So, after much thinking and discussing with hubby (I don't have internet banking or ct card, so kna ada green light from him before buying things online) we decided to buy some cloth diapers to try.

Quite easy to use, I might say, but sadly I hardly use them sbb tak sempat nak cuci. huhuhu. So can't really comment on it.

Actually I want to write about cloth pads. Gross?? I initially thought so too. I was a bit eww when I first read about it, but I had a very bad rashes with one of the maternity pads I used, I decided to give it s try. Well, it's not so hard to wash, saves money and it comes in cute prints too!! So, why not kan? A bit pricey, but if u calculate the amount of pads/ liners (esp if u're like me who have pv discharges or keputihan) u're going to use in the next couple of years, it still come out cheaper. besides, u can ask for discounts if u buy in bulks and can choose the prints u want. :))

I bought 1 trial package of pads which consist of 2 medium pads and 2 panty liners and extra 2 panty liners from mum7kids. And the verdict? I like it. Saves me money from buying panty liners each month. Oh, and my pv discharges reduce quite significantly also. So, yeah it is well worth it.

The pads I have yet to try since I haven't got my period since my pregnancy. But I did promote it to some of my colleagues and she said the pads were very comfy. Even her MIL is interested.

The washing up is easy too. I usually just remove the stain and wash it in the washing machine. macam basuh underwear biasa. So, takde laa susah pun. :)

anaesthesia = hours of boredom and moments of terror

I am currently in OT, doing my elective list for the month. (read:extra money :p). Got to do Eye cases which I don't like because;
1) I cannot see what they're doing hence I cannot predict when they're going to finish.
2) I don't have easy access to my precious ETT tube as it's part of the surgical field and draped. It's headache if for some reason the patient can't be ventilated, I'm screwed.
3) it's boring due to 1)
4) they always said "lagi setengah jam, when it actually means - maybe lg 1 ke 2 jam)

but then, it's not like trauma cases where your heart will pop out any minute, and your heart rate is as fast as the patient's bleeding on the table.

I kind of like it here, being in this dept. There are busy days, but they're better compared to others (i think). but shall I be an anaesthetist? urmmm, studying is hard work and it is actually one of the most stressful job in medicine. Takkan nak jd Michael Jackson, mati sbb stress so, guna propofol (that's one of our anaesthetic drug). nak sgt tdo, kan dah tdo trus. tskk

Sebenarnya cita2 saya sekarang, pada saat dan ketika ini adalah untuk jadi WAHM. bukak sebuah kafe kecil, combine dgn kedai buku atau butik barangan bayi. dan boleh suka2 goyang kaki. panggil org keja, cuma pantau dari jauh. that is if I have the capital lah kan. Siapa mau join, mari! ;))

..kacak luar, kacak dalam, kacak dengar sini..kalau saya senyum, awak mesti senyum sekali..

Baru bercita-cita nak update blog dengan panjang lebar, tapi si budak kenit sudah bangun. He's happily sitting on my lap though, hisap jari, so let's see how far can we go ;)



Adam is already 6 months plus, and alhamdulillah I'm still able to breastfeed him. Not 100%, as he does requires an occasional topup of S-26 if I'm oncall, but minimally. and now he will actually sembur the FM sbb tak suka. sabar je lah. It is not an easy journey, but it's enough. There are few things that I wish I could change though. Like;



1. I wish I stocked up a lot of milk during pantang time. I had about 20, and they all finished up within 3 weeks of going back to work. Orang da cakap suruh simpan byk2, and I thought 20 was a lot. Boo me! :p



2. I wish I can have the leisure of 3-hourly pumping session at work. but that is not possible. I'm thankful to squeeze that 20 mins pumping session during office hours. 2 sessions is always a bonus. And if I'm oncall, 5 sessions in 24 hours. Though very tiring, I felt guilty if Adam had to have FM at home. I was a bit down the first time we decided to buy FM as my EBM was not enough for that day. But I guess that was one of the best decision we made, as I was not worrying about Adam not having enough milk, my milk production increase significantly after. :)

3. Can someone pump for me please??? I am just so tired sometimes, pumping feels like a chores. Ok, itu karut haha :p

Apapun, I'm thankful to have such a supportive husband who packs my milk bag every morning. Thank you, dear :)

Ok that's all for now. I really need to stop before this cheeky boy pull out the modem, again !!

happy chinese new year

yeay! now can update using my i-pon, so hopefully can update more often.
let's see if this thing works well or not ;)
tp bagaimana mau insert gamba ye??? tade icon add gamba pon @.@

..bila bahagia mula menyentuh, seakan bisa ku hidup lebih lama..

I'm post call, and managed to put adam to sleep by 8pm. Dah lama nak update blog, but haven't got the luxury. Oh well, maybe I still didn't have a proper time-management, and stiil tend to procrastinate. Old habits die hard, huh?!

Adam is going to be 4-month young in a couple of days. Macam dah besar sgt je. Dah mula memanjat2 bila dukung and da pandai meniarap and angkat punggung. Sangat pandai tgk tv ok! I let him watched upin ipin the other day and he watched it sampai air liur meleleh dan tersenyum sorang-sorang. I guess he likes the high pitch voices of the characters. heh ;) adalah kelakar. seperti ada toy yang sangat expressive. Oh, not to mention when he starts to angkat punggung to move forward, adalah seperti ulat yang comel. hahahaha. tetapi adalah kurang comel bila dia mahu main, but I'm too sleepy to play, jadi dia mengamuk for attention. Or when he wants to play during feeding time then tiba-tiba lapar tak terhingga, dan susu lambat sampai. jadi mengamuk kerana tidak sabar. kurang comel :p

Managed to breastfeed till today, eventhough Adam already started to take S26 last couple of weeks as I don't have enough EBM stocks during oncall. Nak buat macam mana, he's growing fast, and if I come back late post-call he sure won't have enough to drink. But then again, we keep it to very minimum, maybe 1-2 feeds each time i'm oncall, which is about 2-3x/ week. Oh well, I planned to start weaning him next month as he already shows the signs. kepala dah tegak, kaki dah masuk mulut plus he looked so sedey when we eat and he only got to watch..hahaha. Managed to make Erin nervous being watched while eating. haha.

Kena attend ACLS (Advanced cardiac life support course) this weekend, but I've yet to read the book. DAh beli for the past 2 weeks but i didn't have the heart to read it. Dah lah wajib lulus. sheesh.. kerana sudah bayar rm330 utk course itu, jadi adalah kena lulus. Malasnyaaaa...

i'm still thinking about what I want to do in the future. Now the only thing that I feel like is staying home and jaga Adam, but would that be a waste? I mean the money spent to go abroad do medicine and then jadi housewife dan bukak online business. Or to further study in.. i'm not sure yet, but that means that I might have to leave Adam behind. Other option is not to further study and jadi...chronic MO. Tapi MO is hard work. Or go out to klinik kesihatan and do office-hour job. Macam menarik. Ntah lah.. i've yet to decide.. *-*

Kesimpulannya, sekarang adalah waktu untuk solat dan tdo awal, kerana mata saya sudah tak mampu diangkat lagi. till then ;)

back-to-work-blues

pejam-celik-pejam-celik, esok genap umur Adam 2 bulan. Sekejap je rasa...macam baru je ari tu rasa Adam tendang2 dlm perut macam ulat-besar-yang-bergerak-nak-klua :P..masuk-spital-kena-operate; makan siang di bulan posa (tskk sebulan nak kna ganti tuuu).. dah abis dah maternity leave. ari isnin dah nak start keja balik..huhuhuhu. Masih terkilan sbb breastfeeding leave yang tidak berbayar itu tidak di approve oleh bos.. hai lah nasibla keja mcm ni, nak cuti pun susah. mintak cuti tade gaji pun tak bleh. Sheeshhh....Masa ni lah rasa bestnya keja kat UK, dpt 6 bulan maternity leave. syok abissss.. apakan daya cuti 90 ari masih blum diluluskan. Kalu tak, bahagianya rasa hati..

Adam dah pandai ketawa + tegur orang. Sangat yummy rasa macam nak makan. kena pulak bila bgn pukul 3-4 pagi nak minum susu, sempat bagi satu-senyum-bagi-mama-cair-dulu-baru-minum-susu..adalah sangat comel. :)) Hari ni dia tdo2 ayam je dari pagi. tadi pagi2 K Long Alya dah dtg nak duduk sini main ngan Adam, Pastu lunch Yaya dtg bwk KFC. Ni baru laa senyap sbb K long dah ikut Yaya balik umah nenek. Jadi pagi tadi ada anak instant sorang lagi. (sebenarnya selalu je K Long tu jd anak instant sampai mak dia suruh bungkus kain baju duduk sini terus hahah :p). Jadi Adam baru lah nak lelapkan mata sambil jeling2 manja kat mama dia yang sibuk layan internet. (Pasni mama nak join plak ;p)

Berdebar2 nak start keja ari isnin. Dengarnya ari selasa dah onkol, tp jadual tak klua lagi, jadi tak konpem laa lagi. Plan untuk Bfeed selama yang mampu (kalu ikut mama dia, bfeed sampai 3 thn, tak penah minum formula, jd sampai tua tak minum susu warna putih haha :p). semoga dipermudahkan usaha. Semoga saya bertabah dan cekal hati. aminnnn. Kemudian kena truskan usaha untuk berpuasa waktu org tak puasa pulak. tapi tu nanti dulu lah. Masa keja senang sket nak posa..heheh

Sebenarnya dah berapa kali nak apdet blog, tapi biasalah kan, suka tangguh2. Bulan puasa, lepas tu raya (sempat lah Adam berjalan raya tahun ni, w/pun cuma pegi umah yang ada open house je..itu pun 2-3 umah je)..masih tak sedar yang diri tak bleh bertangguh keja lepas ada budak kenit ni, kalau tak alamatnya lari sume schedule..almaklum bila hidup sekitar budak kenit comel yang keja minun-tdo-main-minum-berak..tentulah dia jadi Adam, namamu teratas, kan? tapi tu lah, sifat mazmumah yang sungguh sukar di kikis...heheh. Nak cerita pasal delivery pun tak tertulis..hehhh..nantilahh

Oklah..budak kenit tu dah bangun nak minum susu.. ;)