confinement oh confinement

Hari ini irdina sudah 20 hari. Sekejap eh? Aku rasa sekarang ni semua pun cepat je berlalu. Macam baru je masuk tahun 2012, tiba2 sekarang sudah setengah tahun. macam baru je pregnant, sekarang dina dah masuk 20 hari. Masa yang semakin pendek, atau kita yang makin sibuk?

Bersalin kali ni memanglah tak sama sebab kali ni planned C-sect sebab saiz aku yang kecik. Makanya, boleh pilih tarikh ikut suka hati. Dan kerana aku bersalin kat spital swasta, jd boleh masuk pagi2 sebelum op itu. Macam sekejap je pun kot op nya. Aku register dlm pukul 740am, buat skin prep, masuk branula, amik antibiotics injection etc, 830 dia tolak masuk OT.

Aku opt utk bius separuh, tp bius tu cam lambat plak jalan, so dia bagi aku ketamine utk sedation, supaya x rasa sakit sangat. Sekarang aku faham kenapa orang salah guna ketamine. Serius aku high. Dia bukan mcm ngantuk khayal macam morphine, tapi tahap high macam masuk wonderland. nampak belon2 berwarna-warni. Dengar orang bercakap tapi tak tau apa. Suara Dina nangis pun sayup-sayup je aku dengar. Dah habis semua, baru aku sedar dan nampak orang balik. Haha. Harus lepas ni aku request ketamine lagi 😜

Pantang kali ni, aku tak bli mana2 set jamu mak dara ke anak dara ke apa. aku cuma beli confinement set shaklee + alfalfa stok 4 bulan, bengkung velcro, dgn uncang mandi herba. Dan jugak krim barut nona roguy. Aku ingat nak beli minyak herbanika NR tu sebab macam banyak orang rekemen kat blog2. Tapi, bila tgk rega dia, x jadi lah. aku pakai minyak urut biasa je aku borong kat Langkawi masa pregnant hari tu. Tak kuasa la aku nak pakai minyak memahal tu. Tak berbaloi kot.

Tapi Shaklee set ni aku rasa bagus lah. Rasa macam cepat sihat dan lebih cergas. Aku start makan hari kedua, lepas keluar spital ari tu. By the time seminggu tu aku da rasa macam badan segar je. Walaupun x cukup tidur sebab Adam tdo kol 1pg tetiap hari. Baru 2-3 hari ni je dia tdo awal sikit. Awal pun, pukul 11, pukul 12 la jugak. 😔

Aku ni jarang lah nak mempromo barang, tapi aku rasa mungkin worth untuk try. Lagipun, trial set dia yang untuk sebulan tu tak sampai rm100 pun harga. compare dgn yang lain, aku rasa ni antara yang murah. Dulu masa bfeed Adam, aku belilah bfeeding set dia, memang susu jadi lagi pekat. Yang kali ni pun aku makan alfalfa tu sebijik je dulu, sebab aku belum start buat stok EBM lagik. Mentang mentang cuti 3 bulan :p.

Oklah adik Dina dah ek ok ek ok lapar agaknya. Nanti bila aku rajin aku apdet lagi. (ntah bila lah tu :p)

from a patient's bed

Yep, i managed to get myself admitted. long before my due date. for a prem contraction secondary to some down below infection. nope, i didn't manage to convince my doctor to let me out today. sad case. she came, told me she's keeping me for another night, and tell me goodbye. then she left. can't even argue my case. tskk. poor baby will have to sleep another night without me.

I'm bored. slept for a few hours last night. now i am a bit sleepy but didn't feel like sleeping. so, now, some reflections; from a patient's view.

Now i do understand how those mothers out there felt everytime i told them, i need to refer you to the hospital, and u might have to stay there for a few days. maybe more. i only have one and a half child and i cried when she told me i need to be admitted. for a bed rest. straight away i thought of my cheeky boy, and how he's going to stay the night without me. well, i used to leave him with MIL while I'm oncall before, but that was more than 6 months ago. and he never slept without me since. but how about those SAHM who's taking care of 6 children, carrying the 7th, with a husband working as lorry driver with a daily pay. I meet with this type of people a lot. Sad, isn't it? I never really think about it before, but now as it happened to me, i understand. So, yes mothers, I will try and be more compassionate. I will do what I have to do. We still have to take care of you first, before thinking about others, but I promise u, I will try to be more understanding.

Dexa injections are damn painful. They managed to take away my mind from my tender abdomen to my bu*t instead. They're still a bit sore now. Thank God I completed my 2 doses last night. In case you're wondering, they are to promote lungs maturity, in case this little girl of mine (yes, we're expecting a girl, insyaAllah), decides that she is too lonely inside and wants to come out and play with her big brother outside. Instead of just giving him a kick every now and then. (and pretty strong kicks they are too). Hopefully, InsyaAllah.

But as I think back, maybe I really need this rest. hopefully 2 nights are enough. At least, when I got admitted for delivery, Adam would be more understanding. And training for papa too, since he always skip the nights when Adam is fussing and couldn't sleep at night, wants to sleep with mama outside instead of staying in the room. hehh.
Oh I miss my clever little boy. He pretended to cry at every corner of the hospital room last night when I told him he need to go back and sleep with nenek. And he refused to go inside the car last night.

As for the little one, just be a bit more patient and wait for at least another month will you? we will see you soon enough, insyaAllah. (at least let Mama pack our hospital bed first and be pretty during your uncle's wedding in 2 weeks time ;) )

of my little person..and my tiny little baby....

fuhhhh fuuhhhh... bersawang di sana sini. azam tahun baru adalah mahu cuba apdet blog selalu. mampukah? hehe mari kita tgk :p

Anak teruna saya dah mencecah 17 bulan semalam. 1year and 5 months flew so quickly macam tak terasa. He is now his own little person. Walaupun buat masa sekarang dia masih belum berkata-kata, cuma 'apak' 'amak' 'mamamapapapak' tanpa perbezaan. nasib lah siapa yang jadi mak atau pak, tapi dia tahu apa yang dia mahu. Kalau tak nak, maka taknaklah (beserta gelengan kepala yang laju), dan kalau nak tu, haruslah tak boleh dihalang. mahu lebam dahi dihantuk kepala kat dinding/ lantai. nasib baik hobi menakutkan itu dah makin berkurangan sekarang hehh.

Dia juga makin bijak bergurau, entertaining us with his 'antiques'. Pura-pura jual mahal bila dipanggil, kemudian tersenyum manis tunjuk gigi kapak yang besar. oh, juga sudah pandai tersipu-sipu bila ditegur kakak atau kawan yg cantik yer. haish, belajar ngorat ikut siapa ntah.

oh, and ge definitely know how to get our attention. jika saya sibuk bersama smartphone, atau membaca, he will take those things away and asked me to look in his direction. he makes sure that i look too!! not too mention our phones are actually his. haruslah tak boleh surf tenet kalau dia mahu pakai tepon, kan?

and he loves nature. animals, trees, flowers. one day at the peads clinic, kerana tak mahu dirolak oleh budak2 yg lebih besar maka saya terpaksa mengalih perhatiannya dari tempat permainan. boleh je dia duduk mencangkung mengadap pokok bunga sambil mengira bunga. and the excitement bila dia jumpa patung ayam nandos itu. tapi binatang kesukaan haruslah kambing. the first animal sound that he copied. jadi kami blikan dia seekor kambing, letak di kandang abang saya, semoga berkembang biak. aminnn.

Dan si kecil ini, sudah 20 minggu. sekejap rasanya, berbanding pregnancy pertama. mungkin kerana ada abang mengisi masa-masa senggang, maka tak begitu terasa penantiannya. Sekarang pun, kalau nak tidur mesti adam akan meraba-raba perut sambil mencubit-cubit lemak di perut saya. kerana itu, saya letak tangannya dan ajak dia berbual-bual dgn adiknya. ajar dia cium dan sayang adik. semoga bila dah besar, mereka tak cemburu dan sayang menyayang.

dah mula terasa quickening dari minggu ke-16. awal berbanding adam. masa adam dulu, dah 22 minggu baru rasa quickening. mungkin sebab dah pernah rasa, jadi dah ada pengalaman kot? hehehe. cuma kali ini saya sering kurang sihat. iasyik batuk selsema. sekarang paling teruk, batuk sampai hilang suara.acam mana nak kerja esok, saya pun tak tahu. tp tak boleh cuti sebab orang lain sibuk cuti anak nak masuk sekolah. haish. semiga pesakit tak takut dengar suara dan bunyi batuk saya yg teruk itu. huhuhu.

go green

i have been wanting to blog about this for a while now, but didn't have the time.

During the last month of my pregnancy, i was put in charged of the anaesthetic clinic. Having quite a lot of free time, ( u see, it was one of the quiet months, just before puasa and raya), i spent a lot of my time surfing for baby stuff. All that I need and want but don't need. heh. So I came across cloth diapers and cloth pads.

I like the idea of using cloth - mainly because it's money-friendly, and eco-friendly (yeah right, mcm laa selama ni ecofriendly sgt pun :p). Also the fact that they're cute on babies' bum. hehe. So, after much thinking and discussing with hubby (I don't have internet banking or ct card, so kna ada green light from him before buying things online) we decided to buy some cloth diapers to try.

Quite easy to use, I might say, but sadly I hardly use them sbb tak sempat nak cuci. huhuhu. So can't really comment on it.

Actually I want to write about cloth pads. Gross?? I initially thought so too. I was a bit eww when I first read about it, but I had a very bad rashes with one of the maternity pads I used, I decided to give it s try. Well, it's not so hard to wash, saves money and it comes in cute prints too!! So, why not kan? A bit pricey, but if u calculate the amount of pads/ liners (esp if u're like me who have pv discharges or keputihan) u're going to use in the next couple of years, it still come out cheaper. besides, u can ask for discounts if u buy in bulks and can choose the prints u want. :))

I bought 1 trial package of pads which consist of 2 medium pads and 2 panty liners and extra 2 panty liners from mum7kids. And the verdict? I like it. Saves me money from buying panty liners each month. Oh, and my pv discharges reduce quite significantly also. So, yeah it is well worth it.

The pads I have yet to try since I haven't got my period since my pregnancy. But I did promote it to some of my colleagues and she said the pads were very comfy. Even her MIL is interested.

The washing up is easy too. I usually just remove the stain and wash it in the washing machine. macam basuh underwear biasa. So, takde laa susah pun. :)

anaesthesia = hours of boredom and moments of terror

I am currently in OT, doing my elective list for the month. (read:extra money :p). Got to do Eye cases which I don't like because;
1) I cannot see what they're doing hence I cannot predict when they're going to finish.
2) I don't have easy access to my precious ETT tube as it's part of the surgical field and draped. It's headache if for some reason the patient can't be ventilated, I'm screwed.
3) it's boring due to 1)
4) they always said "lagi setengah jam, when it actually means - maybe lg 1 ke 2 jam)

but then, it's not like trauma cases where your heart will pop out any minute, and your heart rate is as fast as the patient's bleeding on the table.

I kind of like it here, being in this dept. There are busy days, but they're better compared to others (i think). but shall I be an anaesthetist? urmmm, studying is hard work and it is actually one of the most stressful job in medicine. Takkan nak jd Michael Jackson, mati sbb stress so, guna propofol (that's one of our anaesthetic drug). nak sgt tdo, kan dah tdo trus. tskk

Sebenarnya cita2 saya sekarang, pada saat dan ketika ini adalah untuk jadi WAHM. bukak sebuah kafe kecil, combine dgn kedai buku atau butik barangan bayi. dan boleh suka2 goyang kaki. panggil org keja, cuma pantau dari jauh. that is if I have the capital lah kan. Siapa mau join, mari! ;))

..kacak luar, kacak dalam, kacak dengar sini..kalau saya senyum, awak mesti senyum sekali..

Baru bercita-cita nak update blog dengan panjang lebar, tapi si budak kenit sudah bangun. He's happily sitting on my lap though, hisap jari, so let's see how far can we go ;)



Adam is already 6 months plus, and alhamdulillah I'm still able to breastfeed him. Not 100%, as he does requires an occasional topup of S-26 if I'm oncall, but minimally. and now he will actually sembur the FM sbb tak suka. sabar je lah. It is not an easy journey, but it's enough. There are few things that I wish I could change though. Like;



1. I wish I stocked up a lot of milk during pantang time. I had about 20, and they all finished up within 3 weeks of going back to work. Orang da cakap suruh simpan byk2, and I thought 20 was a lot. Boo me! :p



2. I wish I can have the leisure of 3-hourly pumping session at work. but that is not possible. I'm thankful to squeeze that 20 mins pumping session during office hours. 2 sessions is always a bonus. And if I'm oncall, 5 sessions in 24 hours. Though very tiring, I felt guilty if Adam had to have FM at home. I was a bit down the first time we decided to buy FM as my EBM was not enough for that day. But I guess that was one of the best decision we made, as I was not worrying about Adam not having enough milk, my milk production increase significantly after. :)

3. Can someone pump for me please??? I am just so tired sometimes, pumping feels like a chores. Ok, itu karut haha :p

Apapun, I'm thankful to have such a supportive husband who packs my milk bag every morning. Thank you, dear :)

Ok that's all for now. I really need to stop before this cheeky boy pull out the modem, again !!

happy chinese new year

yeay! now can update using my i-pon, so hopefully can update more often.
let's see if this thing works well or not ;)
tp bagaimana mau insert gamba ye??? tade icon add gamba pon @.@